Head over Heels

To be honest, I don’t really know where to start with my blog.

                      LOVE? What is it? It is just a four-letter word that only exists in fairy tales, that’s how I define it until I experienced it myself. I can’t even say that I have been in love but with that indescribable feeling I felt, I believe it’s LOVE. Being in love and loved is such a great feeling! Love comes unexpectedly, you won’t even know if you’re in love already. It’s like your whole world revolves around him and you won’t even know that your falling with someone already. I believe that love waits, but when love comes to you, it will be so hard to turn back now. Even though you don’t like to be in love yet, you can’t stop the feeling.

            I met him about a year ago. He is a good looking guy and he’s quite famous in our school. We’re not classmates and were not even from the same year. I didn’t know how we became friends but all I remember is my stomach developed the different combinations of emotions whenever I see him and I couldn’t think straight. We started to know each other better and that’s where it all began. I didn’t expect that love will change me. There were sparks that flew when we had this mutual feeling. He had this strange ability to make me feel so special. He made me feel beautiful and he made me happy.

            Love is the strangest thing in the world. It even pushes us beyond our limitations. Love is cruel and gruelling, my definition of love changed after love made me lie to my parents. Yes, I lied to my parents just to keep this mutual understanding which is a crazy thing.  Those moments when you are feeling the pain of your loved one slowly slipping away in an ungracious and undignified way, which was the worst feeling ever. I would never keep a secret to my parents anymore. Maybe during those times I just wanted to be loved. I want someone to make me feel special, accepting the real me.  I don’t need a perfect guy. All I want is someone who can give his love to me. Who is a fighter that can protect me and fight those circumstances that will pass us.  A guy who is God- fearing.  A guy who can make me laugh and smile all the time through his own ways.

Our love story was sad because it didn't end the way I wanted it to end. But because of love I did stupid things which I shouldn't have done; because of love I experienced those empty nights and lonely days. But this love even for once in my life, I felt so special, that someone could accept the real me. He was my inspiration. Our memories will never be forgotten it will be treasured and will be a lesson. Everyone has their own turn. Maybe it wasn't my turn yet. I realized that I am a wild flower and he was a beautiful rose. We oppose in many ways but we still found a way to find our similarity and that is through love. Those butterflies in my stomach that I have during those days are now being released. I am now happy and I learned so many things. 

~Love is always associated with pain. 

~Love is just the hardest thing to explain.

~Love makes you go crazyyyy.